Let's Talk About Love

For those of you who don't know. . . Britton and I broke up about a month ago. We decided that we weren't going to make each other happy and that it was best if we let each other go and find happiness. Consider yourself caught up.

Now for my thoughts.

It hasn't been an easy month. It's been full of much healing, many tears, and many, many angels in my life. It's been hard, but I know both of us have grown leaps and bounds from where we were a couple of months ago. We aren't mad at each other, and we still want the other person to be happy.

I had a girl at work come up to me during work today. She told me that she had a personal question she wanted to ask me. She made sure that I understood it was very personal. I am willing to answer personal questions, but I have a limit. There are some things that I don't feel comfortable sharing to people I don't know all that well. But I told her I would probably be willing to answer.

The question she asked me kind of caught me off guard:

"Do you still love Britton?"

This is actually something I've thought about quite a lot recently. The answer is yes. I do. I want him to find happiness, I was hurt when he was no longer prominent in my life, and I'm not angry. I truly wish him no ill. So yes. I love him. And I always will. I feel like, when you truly love a person, you can't turn that love off like a faucet. It will always be flowing, always be there.

But the great thing about love is that loving one person doesn't distract from your ability to love another--if anything, it enhances that ability to love. When you love someone your capacity to love others grows. Love is something that keeps growing. I can love Britton for the rest of my life and that doesn't mean I will love the  other men who come into my life any less.

That's not to say that I will always love Britton like I did when we were dating. The nature of that love has adapted to our current circumstance. I love Britton as a teacher, a good man, and a friend. He was able to teach me a lot about what I look for in a relationship and what makes me happy. He was able to show me that there truly are great men out there. We were able to teach each other in a way that was beautiful and remarkable.

I learned a lot about love because of how we treated each other.

And I feel that I am more able to love more deeply. I know that I have that capacity for love, and I know that that capacity can grow. Love is something that will grow to fill the space we give it. And sometimes it finds a way into the places we don't realize we're allowing. It's kind of like a weed that way, but it's not at the same time because the definition of a weed is something growing where it's unwanted.

Love should never be unwanted.

Love is a beautiful thing. I am so grateful it's something we're able to experience here on earth. Because true love is a thing of God.