C'est La Vie!

Today was rough. I guess I woke up on the dazed side of the bed and I kind of fumbled through my day. I made a lot of mistakes that I definitely wouldn't make on a normal day. I found myself embarrassed several times. But you know? That's kind of the deal with life. Some days are rough. Some days your mouth does run away with you. But the great thing about this life is that it can always get better. And those rough days? You can always go to bed and get another one. When that sun rises, the possibilities are only limited by your imagination.

To me, that's the most beautiful thing.

Right Now

* I bought all my textbooks for this next semester last week. I think I have about twenty textbooks that I need. Thankfully there is the amazing invention of Amazon that made my books a whole lot cheaper than they would be otherwise. I think this is going to be a good semester.

* It's apricot season. We have a tree in the front yard. It's the happiest thing.

* I picked up the ukulele for the first time on Sunday. I figured out how to Silent Night and realized that my life would never be the same again. I'm hooked.

* Change is a little bit scary, but it's also the only way we really progress and learn. So it's also a very good thing. The best things aren't always the easiest.

* I am in the same single's ward that I was in last year, but it's different this summer. Maybe I'm different. I love it. I'll definitely miss it when I go back to school, but I'm also excited to see my friends in my BYU ward.

* Moving is my least favorite thing. I'm trying my very hardest to avoid thinking about that part of school.

* My list of must-see movies is growing more quickly than I can watch them. I have too much to do, I guess.

* I cut out the fabric for one of my dresses the other day. I need to start sewing. I want the dresses done, I just need more time devoted to them.

* I'm very grateful for growth. I love the person I have become so far.

* I started reading The Count of Monte Cristo the other day. I've never read it before. Sometimes I wish I could shun responsibility and curl up by a window and lose myself in a book. Sometimes I do that, but not often.

* Life is beautiful thing and I am so grateful for personal revelation. I don't know where I'd be without it.

* Smile. It makes the world brighter.

Better Than All Right

Sometimes, a lot of the time, I worry myself about how things could turn out. I've done it since I was a small child and it drove my mom nuts. I still have that habit of projecting things that could be on the now. It isn't always a bad thing, and about half the things I imagine up are really good. But it can be distracting and frustrating a lot of the time. I guess I have something I need to work on.

I've been in a stage of projections for the past month or so and it was really starting to worry me. Not a debilitating worry, but it was just that I would think about the things on my future mind and I would get anxious because I don't know how things are going to work out.

Recently I got a glimpse. Not necessarily a picture of the road to get there, but a glimpse of the end result: it will be absolutely wonderful. And I know that, even though I may not know the how, everything--everything--is going to be just fine. In fact, things are going to be better than just fine; they're going to be absolutely perfect.